My wanderlust is kicking in again. I want to get out of my comfort zone and travel the world.. or at least my country. I want to see what is out there, simply the plurality of the unknown. I know I have been missing a lot already. And the feeling of being stationary is killing me.
When I read this blog Why Every Woman Should Travel Alone by Hemal Jhaveri through a friend this morning, I heard myself saying, "Bam!" This is exactly what I have been waiting for these past few years. I actually wanted to visit a distant place by myself and come back, of course, with a renewed hope and faith, and a new level of self-confidence and independence that are unachievable by simply doing the ordinary. I believe every one of us is extraordinary in our own special ways. We are all born for something in this world, whether it is being a nomad or a wandering English teacher in Asia or Europe. We can never underestimate ourselves just because we think we can do or discover little. We can do and discover so much more than what we can conceive. Experience is unlimited.
One of the lines that I loved in the blog was "Do not postpone what's important to you simply because others don't share your priorities." I remembered what I said in my old Xanga blog in highschool,
People have to change.. for the better, right? For me, the secret in life is you don't have to stop and wait for people to grow up. If you have to run ahead of them to fulfill your own dreams, do as you wish. You can help them on their way but don't let them run your life.
Surprisingly, that statement still describes my current attitude and perspective towards people and life. Just because people don't agree with you or does not prioritize the things you want, that does not mean that you have to change your ideas or stall and wait for them. There is a great difference between living for people and living for yourself. There is even a much greater difference when the purpose falls deeper: Living for God.
So I will keep on getting ready by packing and repacking my bags, equipping and training myself until the right time to travel alone comes. Even for a short time, I must live without compromise. I believe that getting lonely can get into me and can trigger my desire for company. But the question is, do I let loneliness overcome? Do I have to be sad and depressed in a beautiful place due to a lack of a boyfriend, family members, or girlfriends to share my happiness with? Does that have to stop the dreams I want to fulfill or the plans God designed for me? As what Hemal Jhaveri said, "Alone doesn't mean lonely. It just means alone. It just means that for now, you're on your own, and that's not a terrible thing."
Now, where do I go?